Tuesday, December 2, 2014

The buildings into which we fly

"Science flies you to the moon. Religion flies you into buildings."

Victor J. Stenger



Just a note: Everyone can spot a hypocritical Christian. Please go ahead and point out the people who behave in a manner which undermine the very faith they profess to belong to. But remember, if you can use my faith's worst examples, I must have the right to do the same.

If there is anything the world loves today, it's arguing in quips. Somehow the people of the world today would rather have a series of contrite and ultimately wrongful sayings in order to coddle their immorality. I am becoming more and more weary of this.

This lead me to thinking something - how many Atheists had died in the service of others? How many were willing to offer their lives in service to mankind, just because they believed they had something worth sharing? To be fair to Atheists I have only observed this behaviour in Christians. It's certainly not the impression I get from Atheists. Most self professed Atheists I have had the pleasure of contact with come across as selfish and arrogant. I have never met a self sacrificing Atheist. They are mostly wealthy and famous for being, well, Atheist [REFERENCE]. Christians become famous for dying for the love of Christ. They will toil their entire lives striving to help a people spiritually and physically, and will ultimately only be remembered because of the vicious ramifications of a cowardly oppositional religion. While there are xtians (because they are NOT Christian) famous for other reasons, I would contend that people like Joel Oosteen, Joyce Meyer, Benny Hinn and the like (here are 2 lists: [LIST 1] [LIST 2]) are actually more famous for being wrong than they are for being related to the church of Christ.

I have never met a deeply kind Atheist, especially on this blog. They have all come and gone without a care for me or my well being. Every single one of them that has come here has tried to argue technical 'scientific' data in some vain attempt to prove me wrong - as if I was some sort of threat to their religion (and oh boy yes were these guys religious - if you think Atheism is not a faith you are just plain wrong.) They have come waving their pompous attitudes and sat high above looking down on me as if I were some intellectual deficit. I have humbled myself before each one of them pleading for them believe, not in my science, but my God, for the sake of their eternity.

So what kind of religion flies you into buildings? The wrong one. What kind of religion cause you to love fellow humans to the point where you will argue at the heart of the issue and not just with quips: Christianity. I will strive to show you the error of your ways, and if by God's grace you see it, then you may be saved. I will strive to be kind to my fellow man, regardless of his faith, because my God tells me that this is the manner of His followers. An Atheist has no such direction, and no such inclination. The Atheist would be kind in an effort to 'outdo' or in some vain attempt to prove that his faith does NOT in fact lead down the path that it ultimately does. I am not interested in flying you to the moon, I am interested in your eternal salvation.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Judgement vs Correction

Biblically, judgement is not telling someone they err. Judgement is knowing that someone is in error, purposefully not telling them, and making assumptions of the person's ultimate destination. It also happens to be the cowards way out, and we know where cowards go.

Correction is informing a person they have done wrong (sin), which can be handled in a loving or unloving manner. We should always strive to correct in love.

We must be so careful not to confuse judgement with correction. One of Satan's (and our heart's) tricks is to fool us into thinking that correction from people is judgement, it is not. Judgement is a silent death sentence, correction is verbal and even if told in an unloving manner, is far more beneficial for us in the long run.

"He who loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid." (Proverbs 12:1)

You are blessed when you are told you sin, it gives you an opportunity to glorify your maker. (Job 5:17,Prov 29:15, Heb 12:11, 2 Tim 3:16)

Thursday, March 21, 2013

What's the difference?

The following is a parody of this blog entry. You cannot argue that scripture condemns homosexuality in Romans 1:27. The objective of the following is not to mock but to create an understanding that sin is the issue. I do not HATE gay people. I wish the best for them. But they, like all of us, need to understand what SIN is before we can move forward with the gospel. The original author shows an earnest desire for "not being gay anymore" but ultimately comes to the conclusion that "since I cannot beat it, it must be ok." We all have our struggles with sin, and we will never "get over it" without God's help. We may be in the same fight our whole lives. I would call this man to ask himself what exactly Jesus died for? Was it sin? Then you should be against it. You cannot serve both God and homosexuality.

I’ve never been an ex-liar. I’ve never gone through an ex-liar ministry, or tried an ex-liar program, and never went into a live-in camp where lying men are taught to behave as honest men. Despite all of this, I can say without any hesitation that ex-liar ministries are no good whatsoever. In fact, they present a great deal of harm to lying people, especially lying Christians.

My lack of participation in an ex-liar camp wasn’t for a lack of desire. Quite the opposite, in fact. During my time of most intense struggle where I wrestled with being both a liar and Christian, I lived here in Clarksville, TN. For most of that time, I struggled financially, and the research I did on the closest ex-liar ministry (...) revealed that it would require a significant financial investment, which I could not afford.

I really wanted to do something about my unwanted lying tendencies. I knew they were there. I just didn’t want them. Because of my fundamentalist belief system (that I held to at the time), I felt like I had to do something. I couldn’t pay for “proper” ex-liar treatment, and I certainly didn’t believe anyone around me had a clue about how to deal with lying tendencies. In fact, my pastor at the time made that clear to me.

One thing I’ve learned in life is to find people who have gone through the process. Find out who’s done it before, in other words. The old adage rings true: never ask a pauper for financial advice. I knew my friends didn’t understand it. They were all busy chasing the truth. So what’s a financially strapped lie-struggling Christian to do?

Why, buy a few books, of course! That’s the American Christian Way!

I began to read a few books on how to overcome this unwanted lying tendency. I read material from ..., specifically. These were men who were on the circuit who were “ex-liars.” They had “left the lies.” I poked around a few other pieces, and began to notice something very interesting: None of the people who told their stories could say unequivocally that they were free of their lying tendencies. They were still “tempted.” or had to avoid certain situations.

While reading through these books, these stories, and these online testimonies, I began to notice a trend. The men who had all “left the lies” as “ex-liar,” all had similar stories. When they were in the “lying lifestyle,” they were BIG liars. Big time. I’m surprised they didn’t have their tongue fall off. Really. They all all talked about their conquests or how many successes at lying they had. Anyone would be saddened by their sordid tales.

But it didn’t represent where I was. I wasn’t a big liar. I hadn’t thrown myself at every opportunity to lie I could find. Hell. I had never told a lie at the time. None of this represented me, and I certainly didn’t think any of their testimonies had any relevance to my own life. I just wanted to not be a liar!

By this time, I was still very much in what I call my “SuperChristian” mode, where I did anything and everything I could to avoid the “lying” thing. I didn’t want to even THINK about the “lying” thing. If I ever saw a easy opportunity to lie (and I was surrounded easy to fool Christians at that time in my life), I would fight to not think about how easy it would be to lie to them and how I would have loved to lied to them, and wonder if they would understand my struggles.

To add insult to injury, I would have my friends ask me my thoughts about white lies… and tell me how free they were to come to a point that they would just tell white lies! That’s exactly what I needed. Struggling liar guy talking to a semi-honest guy about lying. Can you say, “mental picture?” Yeah. Not a big help in my quest to not be a liar.

This went on for a few years until I realized how very alone I was. I could have made the effort to try to work it through in some sort of “discipleship” program, but frankly, I didn’t want to talk about THAT all the time. I just wanted it to go away.

It didn’t go away. Not ever. No matter how hard I tried to ignore it. I came to a point where I had to seriously consider that what I needed was someone who not only understood what I was going through, but would help me to come to terms with who I am.

The one thing I did NOT want was to go through some sort of self-destructive cycle with habitual lying. You know the game. Lie to anything with an ear and hope I don’t get caught. I’ve seen too many people destroy their lives with that crap, and I had enough self respect to know that such behavior is not only sinful, but, well, it’s stupid.

I didn’t necessarily want to lie. I wanted truth. Through lies.

But I didn’t want to really look for it. I certainly didn’t want to be a “liar.”

What I saw in the “ex-liar” circles through their websites and literature was that idea that I’m broken because I’m a liar. I wasn’t broken. I was just different. I didn’t see it that way at the time, and the “broken” belief was deep in my spirit. It was a dark cloud that led me into a deep depression. I thought I was broken — and had no idea how to get UNbroken.

This is what the ex-liar legacy did for me. I was the collateral damage. Churches would expect me to go through programs I could not afford. The entire church culture was built around being “broken.” And then there’s the “causation” drumbeat. You know the drill. People are liars because they’re lied to as children. People are liars because they have absent fathers. Or overbearing mothers. None of that relates to me.

I was never lied to as a child. My mother, while strong willed (what mom isn’t?), is certainly not overbearing. Okay, my dad and I have kind of a strained relationship. But let’s be real. He’s a former football player, a lawyer, and a judge. I’m a graphic designer and illustrator. He likes Garrison Keillor. I like science fiction.He’s a Rush Limbaugh Republican. I’m a Rachel Maddow Democrat. We have nothing to talk about. We have nothing in common. Of course we have a strained relationship. I love my dad. He loves me. We just — well — don’t talk. And that’s okay.

Ultimately, my desire to change was rooted in one simple solution: faith. I needed faith to change. Since my particular brand of faith at the time was within the charismatic community, faith wasn’t just a belief in God, it was a required belief that I would be “delivered.” I would be changed. And if I didn’t get changed, then I didn’t have enough faith. I needed more. More. More. Once I saw that pattern start to emerge, I realized the fallacy of what it was all about. This is the exact same spiritual superiority that looked down upon me because I am STILL mostly deaf. Since birth. I’ve never been healed. I “didn’t have enough faith” for a miracle. I should have believed more. It’s my fault. I’m the one that’s inadequate. I’m the one who has to have more faith. Better faith.

It was my fault that I’m still deaf. It was my fault that I’m still a liar. God can fix me. If I believe. If I have enough faith. You know, people still tell me this crap. “You just need to have faith.” Seriously. After a while, the false condemnation of “not having enough faith” becomes exposed for the manipulative lie that it is.

It’s nothing more than spiritual abuse and witchcraft, quite frankly. I rejected that garbage years ago, and I patently reject it today. There’s no such thing as “ex-liar;” it’s just self-deception. There is no “...;” it’s just a liar. There is no such thing as “enough faith to change;” it’s just new and creative ways to lie to yourself and those around you.

In fact, the ex-liar “industry” is changing right before our eyes. Exodus itself is in the process of a major rebranding effort. Once Alan Chambers admitted last year that “99.9%” of all people can not change their sexual orientation, the group went through an immediate upheaval. Leaders within the group began to divide themselves, with some of the more hardline people leaving to form a new group called the “Restored Hope Network.” Exodus, for its part, began to embrace the reality that lying Christians are indeed Christian. RHN, on the other hand, emphatically rejects such a notion as heretical. (Of course, I would counter that if there’s no hope as a lying person, and we know that liars can not change their tongues, where’s the “hope” they want to “restore?”)

The outright virility of RHN centers around the work of people like Dr. Robert Gagnon, who takes great pride as being the “foremost” expert on why lying is a horrible thing, and the bitter rejection of lying Christians based on his theology. Gagnon was very public about his demand for Alan Chambers to resign. Chambers stayed. Gagnon left. But not without a stinging essay that concluded:

For Clark Whitten (and thus for Alan Chambers) you “get grace,” you understand it, when you can say to yourself that you are free to commit any sin without any consequences in terms of one’s relationship with God. That is what liberty is, he says. But 1 John repeatedly states that if you walk in darkness, keep on sinning as a defining feature of your life, are not keeping God’s commands, love “the world” with its lusts, as a way of life do not do what is right, or hate your brother, you have no partnership with Christ, his atoning blood does not continue to cleanse your sins, you are from the devil rather than from God, the truth is not in you, you do not remain in Christ and God, you are not in the light, the love of the Father is not in you, you have not come to know God, you remain in death and have not transferred to life, you do not love God, and you have no basis for reassuring your heart that you belong to Christ. You are, in short, a liar. Frankly, the only word that I can think of that adequately describes Dr. Gagnon rhymes with ... But I digress.

I don’t think the folks at Exodus are quite at the point of embracing lying Christians fully, but they’ve made quite a bit of progress in recent years. They have been distributing a flurry of clarifications and apologies to various groups, so it’s just a matter of time before the dust settles. I’m also convinced that the leadership — including Alan Chambers and Randy Thomas — are going through a journey of their own. They’re getting a lot of criticism from all sides right now, but they’re also engaging in a lot of conversations. I won’t speculate on where they’ll all end up, but the level of humility that I’ve seen recently is a very good indicator.

I’ve also had some wonderful conversations with Michael Bussee, who was one of the co-founders of Exodus. He and Gary Cooper left the organization after they realized they were lying to each other. Oops.

The rigidity of the RHN, though, is its own trap. These are people who have elevated their doctrines and theology over the people they believe they’re called to reach. As a result, they’re not going to reach anyone but equally-shortsighted parents who don’t want their children to be liars. The likelihood of spiritual abuse in these situations is almost a certainty. My prayer is that anyone impacted by this “network” will eventually find healing.

It took me a few years to come to a point where I can embrace both my lying tongue and my faith as a Christian. I’m thankful that the grace of God carried me through those dark years without the added torture of an ex-liar experience. Even touched by it as little as I was, I still felt the obligation to try. Thank God that He carried me to a place of perfect peace and unity.

One of the old slogans for Exodus is “freedom from lying.” I have freedom. It’s freedom from the lie of self condemnation. I am not broken. I am whole. I am a liar. And I am Christian.

And it’s a wonderful thing.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Welcome to the modern dark ages

Modern society "burns" even the idea of aided evolution, thinks they are better than what the RCC did to Galileo

Is science questionable? That is what I thought about today as I constantly consider the evolution / creation debate. If science is not questionable then it is not science. It is dogma.

What baffles me is that science is based on observation. Real science, therefore, can only call itself science when it is observed. I understand the implication, since we do not directly observe God, He cannot be scientifically verified.

But with this in mind, we have to ask, can science explain everything? The answer, of course, is not yet. But now, are there things that will never be explained? The answer to this question is incomplete - we cannot know what we do not know, unless the evidence comes about in the observable universe, and we cannot know what we will be able to prove in the future.

So with all this doubt, we have prospects. These prospects are wonderful. We are capable of questioning first principles and detecting assumptions. These tools help us in our inferences based upon the universe. I admit my assumption, that God exists. But I wonder how many people admit that there are gaps in their knowledge, and that if evidence of God where to exist, would they be able to question the assumption that He does not exist?

When you stop the ability to ask questions, you create the dark ages. If you challenge the modern thought, for some reason you are not seen as a visionary, but a scapegoat for ridicule. The Roman Catholic Church burned Galileo at the stake, for questioning an assumption. But today he is revered as a martyr for the freedom of scientific thought.

By removing the concept of the possibility of God, the world has shown that it is not religion (or Christianity) that makes bigots, but that people are naturally inclined to become violent towards a particular belief system when there is enough evidence to challenge it. I welcome challenges, but the modern world is slowly slipping into the very same trap they did in the dark ages

There is also another note. Faith does not say "I don't look for answers because I believe." Faith says "I look for answers, but I can sleep without having the answer for everything." I think the challenge for the modern western mind is to accept that there are some things there may not be any answers, but I also believe that is why God claims to grant PEACE, not necessarily ANSWERS on this side of the grave.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Invitation to the masses

9Gag.com and Membase are not just a 'funny image' websites. They are not where one can go wind down and look at a few funny images. I would have liked it if it were that. No, occasionally it turns into a hate perpetuating moral toilet for those who want nothing more than to slander those of other religious / political / ethnic viewpoints. Every now and then I do see a ray of light though.


They are places to go to feel empowered. People flock there to 'have their say' and ultimately, their say is drowned in the sayings of others. I am not going to encourage readers of this blog to go to these sites, but rather, I have provided the inks necessary for you to check it out for yourselves. The fist image I have linked to reveals a supposed 'call to equality.' It is funny how all religions are thrown into one basket here. You know I have never seen any other religion being slandered or blasphemed on this website. Only Christianity is blasted there. Only Christ and the true God of the universe is slandered there.

What I love is that they are doing what the devil has been doing for years. The users on this site reveal that they are not actually using their brains, but are rather a product of the culture they live in. They only attack Christianity, because they seem to think that is the only religion. They group all Christians into one basket, as if all of us go out protesting and hating others.

By the way - NO Christian HATES. If they do they will be in the group of goats to which Jesus says: "And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.’" [Matthew 7:23]. If Westboro Baptist Church does not offer a message of hope and salvation to those in sin, and admit to being sinners themselves, they are far more gone than any homosexual or pro-'choice' person.

I am starting to get sick of using a logical argument - and let me defend that (yes, with logic...). Logic only takes people so far. And what is hilarious is that you can have the wrong premise and the logical outcome can be fairly rational. However faith and logic can be a powerful tool. I do not throw away my faith when I come to a failing in my logic (something I am at least capable of admitting to), I rethink, go back to first principles, and hopefully move on. I am not even asking for the world to approve of my logic plus my faith. All I ask is the opportunity to defend the truth that "All have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God" [Romans 3:23] and that there is no injustice with God (the claims that he says not to kill and yet kills people [This is a blatant and childish attempt to bring God down to human standards.]) [Romans 9 : 14-15] and that he does not offer freedom from death, but freedom from hell and eternal death.

What really scares me is the eschatological implications of the way the world is going. My view of the book of The Revelation of Jesus Christ says that the history and future of this world have a sort of 'poetic balance' in and of themselves, and what I see revealed in the history of the bible and today is an alarming symmetry. I see the people of Sodom and Gomorrah, I see the lifestyles of the Roman empire, I see the wretched faith of a stubborn people, both in the now and in the then of the bible. Why is this balance there? To show us that God is not surprised with what is going on here.

Here is my demotivational poster, I need to find a group of 'christians' protesting something the world really loves (like pro-homosexuality) and put that picture in here, and that will be my contribution to 9Gag.


Just again: I am not anti-homosexual. I am anti-sin. I will not protest sin in the streets, not condemn anyone who practices it without knowledge. Just as much as you have the freedom to sin, I am not capable of obliterating it. I will try to lovingly tell you that what you do will have an eternal affect on your position with God and that if you repent and believe you will be forgiven. But once you have heard and rejected my message all I can do is protect myself and my loved ones as best as possible. I will never vote allowing people to sin. I cannot change your heart or see what you do when you are alone, I can only pray that the One who can and does will change your heart and grant you repentance.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Does Evolutionist = Racist? (aka If I am a big enough bully, I win the argument)

If there are two things I hate in this world it is ad hominems and straw men. As a creationist SECOND and a Christian FIRST it must be stated that I am better than the other side. Dear Evolutionist, I refuse to resort to the simple minded tactics that you would use on me. As someone who was captain of the debate team, I learned early on the best way to defeat an argument was on the premises of the argument itself. Or as the bible induces 'from within.' In other words, present the argument correctly and consistently, because a bad one is easily destroyed by the proponents as misrepresentation.

Where does this come from? Well, people read my bible the wrong way. The call God immoral, they misread biblical texts in order to introduce supposed erratum, they call Christians bigots and hypocrites. While this brand of 'mud' slinging does wonders for the validity of the arguments themselves, I fail to understand why both camps still do it. By employing Jesus' best trait we can win the fight, at least in worldly terms, by eating a rather large slice of humble pie.

I believe that when I resort to certain tactics, the tactics I learnt while not a Christian, I do my own argument detriment in the eyes of the onlooker. Take people who picket abortion clinics or those who have anti-homosexual protests. These people exhibit an anti-Christian behaviour that is inconsistent with their theology. And you know what? It's obvious that they do not understand the very underlying nature of their beliefs.

But that is only from the Christian side. The (non-Christian) evolutionist has no such 'saftey net' into which they may fall. I propose to you that if evolution really teaches racism, the obvious answer is 'so what?' Just because we see it as a social evil does that necessarily mean it is not true? Did you really think that kind of argumentation would convince someone that a (supposedly) scientifically proven process is untrue? Because you claim it promotes racism? Do you think genes care?

I would say to Christians that we need to up the ante here. We need to stop looking for our petty 'solutions' to the evolution problem regarding scripture.

Can I tell you why I don't believe evolution? Because of my EYES (with reference to the scientific method of observation, not to the eye as a physical 'unevolvable' appendage). Really. I have not seen genes pop out of nowhere and extend the length of a DNA strand. In the first place, I have never seen a report where NEW information (NOTE: a system with {a, b} in it producing {a, b, c} where c = a + b is not NEW information) was generated inside an already existing cell. Secondly, I have never seen a report where the DNA structure was ENLARGED as a result of breeding. Thirdly, death cannot come before sin, which makes God a liar.

The more I consider the argument, the more I believe science will eventually come around. But to tell them to 'stop sciencing' because 'mah bahbel tellz em so' is counter-productive. Let them search for truth, and eventually, eventually, they will be filled with so many contradictions that they will eventually start questioning the assumptions.

There are no easy answers, I have heard several stupid ones lately, namely:
  • If we came from apes, why are there still apes? That really has to be a knuckle-headed question. There are still apes BECAUSE THEY SURVIVED. Evolution does not claim that it throws the old away, it claims that changes happen over time.
  • Conservation of angular momentum. This one is silly. Some would say that if the big bang is true, everything should be spinning in the same direction. Wrong conclusion. Please go look at your clock. Make sure you take note of which way the hand is turning. Now stand behind the clock, which way is the hand turning now? Anti-clockwise! That proves that in a 3 dimensional universe an object can flip over and be spinning in the opposite direction.

Monday, June 4, 2012

If faith is blind, then so are you

This is by no means earth-shattering, but it is a thought that has crossed my mind as I was reading the title [here]: "Faith obeys, without knowing how." (I do not consider this great literature as it poses thesis' in an unnerving tone)

Now while I certainly believe the statement, it got me wondering about the creation / evolution debate, a.k.a the religion vs science debate. Now the latter title is clearly wrong, there is not a distinct line separating the two - you can have religious science, and you can have a scientific religion (I am one of the former).

But what I want to speak of is this: faith knows not HOW. This is interesting if you actually stop to think about it. While atheists and the like will childishly stipulate that not knowing HOW is the reason why they do not believe in God, they miss the point entirely. Knowing all the internal mechanisms is not an answer to the bigger questions. I think God gave us what we need 'at base level' in the bible, and has left the joy of discovery of the rest of it up to us. But the bible does not put all the answers to HOW things come about.

And then the question is: is this reasonable? Can we truly believe in a God who expects an acceptance without knowing HOW? I think the absence of HOW is exactly that: faith. Which then categorizes evolution very nicely into the religious sphere. In fact, a lot of science then falls into this sphere. I will not pretend to know so much as others, but the purpose of science is to divulge that of a earthly nature, the purpose of Christianity is to expose that of a spiritual one, using the same mechanisms.

The fact is, all science and human knowledge is based on faith. For example, what is the smallest thing in the universe? Atoms can be broken down into... what? And further than that? And further than that? Can you ever PROVE you have reached the smallest thing ever? You can't because FAILURE is not a definitive answer. And yet we have entire branches of sciences in these fields expecting things to work consistently, regardless of their blind faith. A way to demonstrate this would be to argue: Do you believe that things that happen in nature happen according to rules? Why do you believe that? Are there ever exceptions to these rules? Can you explain all of them? If you can't get any smaller, how do you know that? These questions initially seem to be the rantings of an annoyingly energetic toddler, but they reveal the ugly truth - that at some point, all people are willing to stop and say 'I have gone far enough in terms of understanding this thing.' That, is faith. If you have ever put down a topic even for a moment, being quenched for a period. You just exercised faith.

That is kind of 'micro' faith. But what about belief of big things? Can we know something for sure on the 'macro' scale? Not entirely. For example: You are either a biological evolutionist or a geographical one. You cannot be both. I would argue that you don't know everything in your field, but I certainly lack the ability to question you within your field. I can say, however, that you would have very little at your disposal in evaluating the discoveries of those who exist within the field opposing yours. So how do you develop an infallible system? Well, you don't. You develop a system in which TRUST forms a major role. I would call it a 'hazy' truth (the term fuzzy is taken). A truth that you promote even though you lack the necessary tools to fully grasp it yourself (You may even misrepresent these truths from time to time). Hmmmm, sounds an awful lot like Christians (Who just happen to be people too). So basically you can argue that two branches of science agree on a truth, but there is no way you can absolutely sure they correlate (e.g. Age of the earth with respect to both the evolutionary 'timetable' and the geological), unless you get an experts in all fields.

So just because Christians have more experience with 'hazy' truths, does not mean we have established all the truth there is to define, nor does it mean we are better at truth than that of others. We have the same struggles as all men do. We are no better off 'logic-wise' than other people. But we have completely different goals. Our goal is not necessarily to see you understand the mysteries of the universe, it is too see the one who put it there. For some people the worst possible thing that could happen to them is death. I disagree, I believe the worst thing is after death for those who have not known Jesus Christ as saviour and Lord. That puts scientific discovery after theology in importance.

Here is the big question: since I claim to know God, why can't I show Him to you? I can show you all the bible I want, all the history I want, but why can't I prove not only the existence of God, but of the Christian God. Ah, you see, that is not the reason I have been put on this earth. My purpose as a Christian is not to explain the HOWS of God, but rather the NEED for God. You must understand that God must reveal Himself, as I believe He did to me. HOW? Well, the only way is to truly humble yourself before Him. But even here I cannot help you. It is within my system of belief that there is NOTHING you can do to force / coerce God to reveal Himself to you, but it is in the realization THAT there is nothing you can do to save yourself, that God has promised to prove your faith worthwhile.