Tuesday, July 31, 2007

My story

First and foremost, I love God more than I will ever love any theological principle. However, it is these very principles that allow me to read the bible and aid understanding what the bible says.

The Holy Spirit is the only one who can give understanding. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom. I remember a while back, when I was still liberal, I learned about Daniel's prayer: He prayed for understanding. Daniel 10:12

Then he said to me, "Fear not, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and humbled yourself before your God, your words have been heard, and I have come because of your words..."

This made Daniel a hero to me. I did not really know why until later. But in order to understand one must delve into my history:

[Memory Lane]

I started off Baptist. It was the closest church and dad said that I needed to learn morals from somewhere. It is surprising that even though my dad is [even still, sadly] a kind of stoic agnostic, that he had no basis for teaching me morals. Lets be honest - no God, no morals. Perhaps this was not his way of thinking, but you never know.

So since the age of four I went to good old Mondeor Baptist church. I grew up in the church and people came and went. At the age of nine I was Baptized in accordance with believers baptism. I never bothered to read my bible regularly nor was I encouraged by either parent.

The Baptist church was either very liberal of the Sunday school teachers were, because I grew up never really knowing important doctrines like depravity. I cannot blame my teachers for I think their theology was crippled as well. So then I went to high school, but remaining at the Baptist.

I went to the youth group, which was even more liberal than the Sunday school. I went to the youth service on Sunday morning, with the same effects. I left high school and embarked on my university journey.

In my first year, I decided to change churches. I was not happy with the fellowship and went to Mondeor Methodist church. I got involved in the youth band and did some mild teaching. I also got involved as a Sunday school teacher there, where I am still serving.

I eventually went back to Mondeor Baptist and found that a lot had changed. The fellowship was very different. I got involved with the youth, out of boredom, only to find that they had reformed. Amazing Grace explained the things I always wanted to know.

So here I am - a 23 year old reformer with no church. The youth leader just got fired for not "moving in the same direction as the church." So the move is necessary if we are to get edification. My only problems are that I am still committed to two churches:
- MM : Children's church leader - leaving end of 2007. Does not really affect me personally because I am finished by 9:00am Sundays anyway 1.
- MB : Worship leader evening service, will have to leave soon.

[/Memory Lane]

In between some of this - I got involved in a Methodist bible study. The guys are strong and a blessing. God kept me with Him even in the deepest depths of my sin by these two things: teaching children and bible study. I had to do small things for God, even if I did not want to. Along the line I learned of Daniel and his prayer. I prayed it and God did answer. I do not claim to understand it all, but I continue to pray.

Ever since God revealed reformed theology to me praying has been such a blessing. Learning God's word has been such a beautiful thing and although I cannot understand all of it, I try and I pray. I cannot impress how awesome the bible is, imagine how great the being who wrote it is. I read it now and it makes sense. There are parts that are confusing at times, but that is why it is a constant study.

So here I am. Blogging away, trying to find a place. There is one church I have heard of that is a possibility for me, so I will see how it goes. But it requires patience. The "Baptist" church re-named themselves to "Mondeor Community Church". This was not disturbing, until I realized I will never be anything but a reformed Baptist at heart. They do not even have a minister, let alone doctrine.

I know the Lord has a plan. I know I cannot be a 'lone-ranger' Christian. I need brothers who will correct me, but unfortunately I think my current set of brothers and I will be separated soon. I pray for patience.

1 Before I get any complaints about being a Calvinist teaching Methodist children. The Methodists know that I am a Calvinist and secondly, none of my kids have been taught the theology of Calvin by me. I teach the stories that are presented and we learn about God through them. I do not give a direct theological bias, even though I would have to if it were presented. If I got to an election verse, I would have to explain it. But so far this has not been an issue and will continue to be a non-issue. My goal is to teach them about God and his attributes. Also if it were up to me I would pull out as soon as I can, but conscience will not let me. The only other leader for the 7:45am service would be completely alone with 20-30 kids and to quit immediately would be a sin. I also would not mind any single person of the church hearing any of my talks with the kids. I am not ashamed of what I believe and I am teaching the Gospel bright and clear.

1 comment:

Qjay said...

On the 5th of August 2007, I informed the "Community" church that I am leaving, affective immidiately.

They suggested I wait until we get a pastor before I make my mind up, but there are several issues with the seemingly "Patient" approach.

Our Pastor died two years ago, he was very young and left his wife with four children. It shocked the church. For a long time I can understand why they did not get a pastor. However, recently, they have started the interview process and we have seen two guys already.

The first guy no-one liked. The second guy was an unashamed reformed pastor. The "community" church does not like reformed stuff, but they liked him for some reason. He came to 'demo' preach once more where we had a better chance to get to know him.

They did not tell us (the normal non-members) why they did not call him. So we had an opportunity for a good pastor and it was wasted. In addition, no one new has come or gone for months. This tells me there is no hope for a good pastor anyway. They want someone who is not like a reformed pastor.

I went to the church Q&A meeting for him. He is TULIP-minded, open to biblical charismatic gifts and a-mil. The a-mil is something you have to deal with. He is not into mysticism. He seemed level headed and was great to talk to. That church does not deserve him.

So on Sunday, I left. I visited my prospective new church and I like it. I am leaving the exodus part of my church life.